how's work?

stressful.

itu je jawapan aku.dari mula kerja sampai lah sekarang.

stress sebab banyak benda kena belajar,adapting with people and the environment.

and even more stressful : takde kawan yg aku kenal kat sini.jadi social life is almost zero.

tambahan pulak roster aku tak menentu.standard lah kan,dah nama pun kerja syif,time orang lain cuti aku kerja,time orang lain kerja aku cuti pulak.jadi nak tak nak terpaksa la duduk terperap je dalam bilik setiap kali cuti.unless la kalau lepas kontrak 3 hari kerja malam,memang akan terus dash off to Ipoh.yes.

semalam abang boy buat kenduri doa selamat.and masa tgh lepak-lepak makan pak long tanya "how's work?" and aku bagi jawapan cliche aku."stressful".
"stress sebab busy ke?bila ajak datang rumah kau asyik cakap kerja je"
"oh aah.ICU tak cukup staf.so selalu kena overtime".and i start rambling this and that.
"did they pay you for the overtime?".i said yes.but that's not the point.banyak duit tapi badan letih tak guna jugak.social life pun zero

pak long senyum,and said to me " takpe yang,bersyukur.ada orang yang kerja lagi penat,tapi gajinya tak sampai pun nilai claim overtime kamu tu.lagi sedih kan?"

aku terus senyap.

this is random.

1. i have to read something while i'm eating.it could be anything - old newspaper,prints on the box,labels from the bottle -anything,as long as i read something.

2. everyday when i woke up from sleep in the morning,i'll be humming a song.and that song will stuck inside my head for the rest of the day.and weirdly enough,the song affects my day too.

3. i do my daily hygienic routine like brushing my teeth,washing my face,soaping and shampooing twice EACH time,without fail.yes,i have to repeat the same thing twice,or else i'll get palpitation and start sweating.i just don't know why.

4. i don't wear shoes when i'm driving the car.

5. i'm not into spicy food - they give me sore throat.and the burning sensation is killing me.okay,maybe tomyam is exceptional.hihi

6. when i'm stressed out, i like to nest.and mind you,i can get really obsessed.oh,and i wipe the floor using the cleaning cloth,not a mop.because i find the mop is scary. i always imagine there's a snake hiding inside of it,and that's why i wouldn't touch it.

7. i kill mosquitoes for self-satisfaction.if i saw one,i'll try my best to kill it.

8. every time i'm having a flu, it always ends up with me having a migraine.its driving me crazy!plus if it happens when i'm working.i feel like banging my head to the wall there and then.

9. if u shake my hand,you'll feel the roughness of my palm.it is sad,actually.my skin is allergic to the foamy hand wash in the ICU,but i don't have any other choices but to wash my hand with them.and washing the hand twice each time is making the skin even more irritated,which led to the dryness and the roughness.not a single lotion can cure this.haihhh

10. yes,i go to sleep early.and i don't have much of a night life.please don't mock me.